zyrille's journey to a new beginning

an empty christmas?

2006-12-09T14:46:00.001-08:00

......... i did not sleep well last night and i dont know if it is because of the coolness of the night breeze or the coldness of the earth to me..............

an empty christmas?

2006-12-09T14:46:00.000-08:00

......... i did not sleep well last night and i dont know if it is because of the coolness of the night breeze or the coldness of the earth to me..............

ZYRIL’s December plans

2006-11-26T00:16:00.000-08:00

Maloloka ako dito sa draft na ito:

Calendar:
Dec. 2 -birthday ni closefriend bugs AKA yola hehehe
Dec.16-simbang gabi
Dec.17-bday ni Clarence, hati kami ni monmon sa cake
Dec.21-22 exam nila janel
Dec.22-deadline ng paghahanap ng wedding gift
Dec.24- noche buena sa greenfields as usual
Dec.25-happy bday Jesus!
Dec.27-kasalan ng mga angel sa lupa
Dec.31-media noche
Jan.1-newyear

6 days to go b4 yola’s birthday-nakahanap na ako gift!
24 days to go b4 xams nila janel at 24 days to go para makabili ng wedding gift para sa mga anghel
29 days b4 xmas.

Ahy! Grabe. Ang laki ng kailangan ko dis xmas! So plano ko yung kalahati sa 25 yung kalahati sa jan.6. ang laki pa ng kailangan ko 4 mm!

Xmas list:
1.mama-200
2.papa-250
3.monmon-250
4.lola-150
5.juy-juy-150
6.orie-150
7.clarence-cake 200 dec.17
8.janel-150 optional: sj-150
9.yola-200
10.kaye-200
11.soi-200
12.wedding gift-1000

TOTAL: 3200 great!

So, let’s do some calculation

1, 2,3,4,5 sa dec.25- 950 pesos / 30 days = 32 pesos /day
1000 pesos / 25 days = 40 pesos / day
32+40= 72 pesos per day
6,8,9,10,11 sa jan.6- 1050 hehehehe paano ko kaya mabibi ang lahat ng ito at san kaya ako kukuha hehehe…….need heavens miracle! =) may advice ba dyan?

christmas headache!

2006-11-25T05:20:00.000-08:00

ay naku! malapit na ang pasko at as usual sumasakit na naman ang ulo ko sa kakaisip............

..........7 days na lang silver birthday na ni yola hehehe buti na lang at may nahanap na akong regalo wish ko lang eh magustuhan niya at magamit niya....

..........25 days na lang ang natititra para mag-ipon at makabili ng perfect wedding gift for mm's.....at hanggang ngayon wala pa akong ipon at nahahanap! hay...sana mahanap ko na at SANA magustuhan niya maappreciate at hindi siya SISIMANGOT DAHIL lahat ng ginagawa at binibigay ko sa kanya galing lahat sa puso ko at aking pinaghirapanng hanapin isipin ipunin at marami akong sinasakripisyong mga bagay maging ang aking sarili mabilan lang siya ng isang magandang regalo na magugustuhan niya....kaya wala siyang xmas gift sa akin...last na yang wedding gift ko.

..........29 days before xmas at wala pa rin akong ipon for my loveones at hindi pa ako nakakaisip ng bibilin ko sa kanila.....

eto sila

1. mama

2.papa

3.monmon

4.lola

5.juyjuy

6.orie

7.clarence

8.janelle (optional: sj)

9.yola

10.kaye

11.soi

ayun sila sila lang naman ok sana konti kaso la pa nga ipon hehehe...sana maghimala ang langit at mabilan ko sila ng mga regalong gusto kong ibigay sa kanila.....

...at ako ano naman ang gusto kong matanggap? kung materyal na bagay, cellphone, rubbershoes and watch at kung hindi materyal na bagay....pag-unawa ng isang kaibigan....pagpapahalaga niya sa lahat ng mga pinaghirapan ko maipakita ko lang na isa akong tapat at maasahang kaibigan hehehe...at syempre masimulan an mga dapat simulan at tapusin ang mga dapat tapusin...at bagong buhay na puno ng pag-asa......makaalis na kami ng bansa un lang hehehe....Merry xmas zay!

senti

2006-04-29T17:34:00.000-07:00

wahahaha!!! lapa aku sulat........im hir at my aunts comp shop eh ayoko magsulat or mgtype hir kc baka my lihim nasumisilip...sa haus pranning ang internet! email lang ayaw pumunta sa inbang site.......magtype muna ako dun ill save it then ill post it here...marami un sobra!....ge till next yeear hahahahaha!!!!!!

kaibigan

2006-01-27T07:36:00.000-08:00

kung meron man akong dapat ikainis ngayong gabi ay ang aking paghihintay na nauwi sa wala at pagkabalisa. Umaasa pa naman ako na ngayong gabi ay makakausap ko ang isa sa mga taong dahilan ng aking patuloy sa pakikibaka sa daan ng buhay.......nag-antay ako umaasang sa pamamagitan ng isang mensahe ay mawala ang aking pangungulila. pangungulila sa kaibgang matagal mo nang gustong kamustahin at nais mo sanang malaman kung siya ay nasa mabuting kalagayan kahit sa ilang minuto lamang......ngunit wala.....wala man lang siyang pinadala....inaamin ko nasaktan ako....nasasaktan ako kapag hindi man lang ako pinapadalhan ng mga mensahe ng aking mga kaibigan lalo na kung sa mga oras na ako ay nasa gitna ng kalungkutan at humihingi lamang ng konting sandali upang mapasaya ang naghihinagpis na kaibigan...minsan ay hindi nila napapansin dahil kadalasan ito ay pabiro.....at ayoko naman talaga nilang malaman...nakakahiya...sino ba ko? isa lamng akong nilalang.......

ngayon para akong sira na nag-iisip kung bakit, ako ba ay may nagawa o nasabi o sadyang wala nga lamang siyang load o di kaya siya ay maraming ginagawa......un na lang lagi....... siguro ay mas mabuti pang itulog ko na lamng ito, katulad ng aking nakasanayan tuwing ako ay nalulungkot at walang karamay, at hinihiling kay ulan na isama na lamg niya ang aking dinadala sa kanyang paglisan.....na sabihin niya kay hangin na ihihip ito sa malayo ng hindi na magbalik pa sa aking alaala...na ako ay patulugin ngayong gabi ng mahimbing at bukas sa aking paggising isang magandang umagang nag-aantay na puno ng pag-asa at pagmamahal at hindi masisilayan ang bakas ng isang gabing malamig at isang pusong nangungulila sa kanyang mga kaibigan.........

bukas, katulad ng dati, kakalimutan kong ako ay nagdaramdam
bukas,katulad ng dati,mawawalang lahat ng aking pangungulila
bukas,katulad ng dati,isa pa rin akong kaibigang handang gawin lahat sa ngalan ng pagkakaibigan......

ang aking awitin....

2005-09-05T06:10:00.000-07:00

hi! bumalik ako! hahahaha. nung isang araw binuksan ko ang tv at nilipat ang channel sa myx at tamang tama at pinatutugtog nila ang awiting sadyang ginawa para saakin at sa iba dyan hehehehehe....akin nga siguro itong kantang ito....saka na ako magkwekwnto ha....

Tumatakbo by Mojofly
Laging bigo; laging sawi-sa pagibig
Minamalas o kay sakit; may balat nga ba ako sa pwet
Mabuti pa ang tindera sa aming kanto
Nakakaingit tl ang sweet nila nang kanilang nobyo

Gusto ko lang; maranasan umibig tamaan ni kupido
Gusto ko lang maranasan; tumibok muli ang puso ko

Chorus:
Tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na ako ng panahon
Di na nagbago bawat araw pare-pareho
Parang kahapon
Tumatakbo ang oras…..

May birthday cake ka nga
Ngunit wala namang kandila
May christmas tree na malupet;
Wala naman dekorasyon pansabit

Sadyang ganyan ang aking buhay
Walang kasing tamlay
Ayoko sanang tumandang- nagiisa

Chorus (repeat 2x.)

Tatangapin nalang ba ang mapait na tadhana
O kaya’y
Tatangapin nalang ba na ako’y
Sadyang hindi pinagpala
Tigilan na ang drama;
Punasan na ang luha

Yeah!

Chorus (repeat 2x)

Tumatakbo, tumatakbo, tuamtakbo naiiwan na ako (2x)

Sometimes it’s much better to live in the world of dreams than to live in the world of reality….

2005-07-24T14:42:00.000-07:00

I had 2 dreams last night….both dreams were about someone who has a space in my heart although that person is no longer there……

The first dream goes like this…..I was about to a ride a tricycle. The driver asked me where I’m going. I said building K please. At last the driver stopped at the front of the building K. I stared at the building for a few minutes and I felt nervous. I spotted a carinderia. Without thinking twice I went inside and I asked the chubby woman if she knows someone in this name. She looked at me and she picked up her phone and dialed a few numbers. A little later she handed me the phone saying SHES on the phone. The conversation was not pleasant. It’s the worst conversation ever. We are arguing. After a long hours of arguing, she slammed the phone……….i woke up….as the last leaves of hope in my heart fell. Helplessly….

I tried to sleep again… kaye and I were sleeping…..then a ray of sun peering through the window woke me up. I opened my eyes and I noticed that im not in my room. Im in someone else bedroom. …and I knew im dreaming again. …….the sun is shinning brightly outside. The warm breeze played with the clothes and the leaves outside when I saw a woman passed by the door. ITS HER. I woke up kaye and I told her that we need to fix the bed. While fixing the bed she entered carrying a set of pillow case. With a smile on her face she asked us if we could help her by changing the pillow case. Then she looked at the pillows and laughed. That’s one of the most beautiful laughter I ever heard. She said she brought the wrong size of the pillow case and asked us to come with her on the other room to get the correct size. We helped her clean the house and while cleaning we are all happy. Sharing stories, laughing at each others mistakes and so on….. It seems like everything is wonderful and I thought it will go on forever….then suddenly my mother woke me up…its over.

This is not the first time I had dream about them. In my dreams were okay. We were all living a harmonious life and friendship but in reality its opposite that’s why the title of the this blog is

Sometimes life in the world of dreams is much better than in the world of reality……… hehehehe my English is bad

bored.....bored....bored....bored......BORED!

2005-07-23T19:19:00.000-07:00

katatapos lang po naming magrosary at.......and this day is a very boring day and a very sleepy day too although ayoko matulog hehehehehe....inaantok pa nga ako eh....uhhhmmm....so what happend sa buong boring day????

Woke up around 7:00 pero tumayo ako 7:15 syempre tinatamad pa at nagsesend pa ng mga morning quotes sa mga human creatures na may meaning sa life ko.

tumayo, kumain ng almusal at higit sa lahat naglinis ng bahay......nagmisskol sa mga tao na ang nagtanong lang kung bakit ay ang aking butihing pamangkin.....see i had a boring day?????

Oh! yeah! dumating nga pala si tita leony para dumalaw dahil nga birthday ko last tuesday ayun kwentuhan sila to sawa ni mama 4:00 umalis na siya kc la raw tao sa bahay....

at ngayon ang aking ginagawa ay sumusulat sa blog...para cute...hehehehehe

at sa aking paglilibot sa friendster.....I saw a very lovely wedding picture. The beautiful dashing smiling bride was walking down the aisle with her parents on her side while her groom was singing their wedding song ,waiting for her. although her parents looked sad on the picture, it was so romantic!!!! plus the audience were all smiling... i was so touched by the groom's way of expressing her lovvve to his bride that i looked at their pictures over and over again. It was so sweeet.plus they also posted their cute son's pictures....hehehehe. shinare ko lang. mamaya i will post a wonderful love song sa blog ni yola. bagay na bagay sa kanila.....hehehehe hoping one day after 5 years of course sa kanilang picture naman yung tinitignan ko...hehehehe...sana yung 4 na love one ko makita ko naman kinakasal...although yung isa kasal na eh d pa naman po binabasbasan ng pari...para cute....

yesterday pala, after a few days, nagkita na naman kami ng crush ko. as usual we smiled at each other. but i have a question. am i doing the right thing? tama ba yung pagnagkikita kami nagsmile din ako. dba pagnagsmile ka malandi ka pag inisnob mo naman suplada ka....asus!!! what to do???? dra. Yola love heheheheheh...by the way whats wrong with your phone? pagtinatawagan ko lagi na lang may sound na NANANANANANANa. minsan out of reach...baka naman gusto mong ishare kung bakit di ka na nagtetext sa akin aside from being busy?

oh welll, dyan na muna ha.....kakanta na si gerald santos eh...hehehehehehehe....... he had a very beutiful voice that reminds me of someone.....his voice reminds me of someone NOT GERALD.......

by the way, d ko alam mga friends ni karl eh at saka i know his landline and his address..........=)

mukhang maganda ang laro ng mga tamaraws........my wish is sana magpalit ng pwesto ang lasalle at ang NU for a change....hehehehehehehehe

the birthday girl who still refuse to become a woman

2005-07-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my 20th birthday….so what happened? Gumising ako ng 5:00 ng umaga para maghanda sa pagsimba sa DSP kasama si Lola. Pagdating namin sa church eh patapos na ang homily…ano pa nga ba ang bago? Sa sobrang kabagalan ko at traffic kaya kami nalate. Yempre nathank you ako sa nakaraang taon at sa susunod pang taon. Nagthank you ako sa mga biyayang aking natanggap d lang last year kundi sa loob ng 20 years. Nagpasalamat din ako dahil lagi silag nasa tabi ko at d ako pinababayaan at lagging dinidinig ang aking mga dasal.

After tha mass umuwi na kami at syempre naglinis ng bahay……..11:00 tumawag si mama at sinabing magkikita raw sa sm para kumain. 12:15 kami malis ng bahay pero si mama 1:00 na dumating galing Chinese gen. dahil nag ecg siya dun. Kumain kami sa super bowl sa may ground floor at masarap naman ang mg food dun…Chinese eh…Chinese? Ohhhhhhh……

Dapat uuwi na kami eh kaso sabi nila since may pera ako sabi nila buy daw ako ng damit dahil muka na daw akong yaya. Sabi ko ayako! Yoko nga….saka na lang pag dami na kami pera…pero ang aking mapilit na kapatid pumili daw ako ng sandals at siya raw magbabayad …no choice kc makulit eh. Kaya yun bumili na rin ako… ( kaya pala ayoko bumili ng sandals kc my toenails are dirty eh I forgot to trim them…yucky! Gugupitin ko na sila later. At saka yung sales attendant ba naman guy tapos cute pa so kaya nahihiya akong ilabas yung paa ko. ….tsk…tsk…another lesson for the day! Gusto rin akong ibili nila mama ng lip gloss…anong gagawin ko sa lip gloss eh once a month nga lang ako kung lumabas ng bahay. Lumabas man after an hour balik agad. Kaya ayako….asar na asar sila kc ayoko pang magayos eh muka na nga raw akong alalay nila…pano raw ako mapapansin niyan? Nyehhh…basta ayoko pa…saka na pag may pera na po.

Pag-uwi nadatnan namin si aldrin at si Marjorie. Akala siguro ng mga mama at papa nila eh may handa ako. wala pa naman kaming dalang food kaya nagluto na lang ng piniritong saging na hindi ko nakain dahil tumawag na si Janelle. Duon na rin namin pinakain ng hapunan sila.

Pumunta na ako kay Janelle at naabutan ko siyang gumagawa ng assignment (Thank you!) at nagagalit dahil 3 pa raw siya nasa bahay eh 4 na syempre sabi its my birthday kaya lumabas kami at sinabi ko sa kanya na tapusin na niya yang ginagawa niya at gagawan ko siya ng test sa math about roman numerals, adding whole numbers, property of addition at estimating sums na nakakaloka dahil until now d pa rin niya makuha. Actually makukuha niya ngayon bukas makakalimutan niya….asus! exams pa naman niya bukas! At isa pang nakashock eh gusto niya ako minsan ang sasagot ng assignment niya at dapat gayahin ko ang sulat niya na sobrang hirap gayahin. (I think its karma…remember t. florie? Yung teacher natin nung grade 4? Dba siya rin taga gawa at taga sulat ng assignment ko? Galit na galit ka pa nga sa akin nun eh. Hehehehehe) kaya ko lang naman ginagawa yun dahil hindi niya talaga gagawin yun at baka bumaba ang kanyang mga grades…lalon ang bababa ng kanyang mga quizzes ewan ko dun lagi ko naman siyang nirereview.

Lam mo naaasar lang ako kela mama dahil masyado raw akong dedicated sa ginagawa ko eh 500 lang daw ang sweldo ko. At bakit daw pag sinasabing laro tayo nakikipag laro na man daw ako. So what kung 500? Im not after their money. Ang gusto ko lang naman yung friendship nila. Guto ko na nakikita ko na masaya sila. They don’t have an elder brother or sister kaya pag inaaya nila akong maglaro nakikipaglaro talaga ako. saka bago kami maglaro sinisiguro ko munang wala na talaga silang assignments at pagkatapos naming maglaro tatanungin ko sila ulit. Nakikita ko naman ang saya nila at alam kong masaya ako pagnilalaro ko sila….na kahit kelan hindi mabibili ng pera. I think that’s one of the reason bakit ayaw nila maging tutor si monmon dahil si monmon gusto aral aral aral ako kc pag ayaw na nilang magaral ulit after doing their assignments, im not forcing them kasi kahit magbasa yun or turuan ko man d nila maiintindihan dahil ayaw nga eh! D ba nga may ADDHD si Janelle?at si sj overconfident sa sarili niya sabagay matalino naman siya so akala niya kaya niya lahat. Pag nagpaturo na lang ayun turuan ko. Siguro kaya mas mabait sa akin yung dalawang bata…at saka yol,a you know naman why im doing this dba? Believe me, malaki ang tulong…..

After our roller-coaster-ride-like tutor session. Umuwi na ako to eat dinner with my family. Minsan pag maraming assignment si Janelle dun ako naghahapunan sa kanila. But this time iniwan ko muna si Janelle at sabi ko babalikan ko na lang siya kc dba its my birthday dapat kasama kong kumain ang family ko not other family.

After eating bumalik na ako dun at chineck ang kanyang math test…as expected d niya nasagutan ang estimating sums! Tiniruan ko ulit syempre hoping na masagutan niya ang kanyang long quiz. Tapos uwi ulit tulog…..zzzzzzzzzzzz

So what are my birthday wishes….marami po eh baka bukas na tayo matapos. Basta sad lang ako kc d natupad yung 2 sa marami kong wish. Yung isa, a birthday greeting from Karl na lam kong Malabo dahil d niya alam ang alandline ko, cell no. ala din siyang friendster account. Pero my isang way….alam niya address ko…pero im no longer expecting. Yung isa alam ko rin na hindi mangayari dahil never naman talaga nangyari yun eh. Kaya lang niya nalaman last year kc may kodigo siya…….hehehehehehe

Sya nga pala salamat po sa lahat ng mga bumati may you have more graces to come at sa mga hindi man lang nageffort!!!!! Bless you! Joke! Ok lang po…..

Ei yola what nga pala gusto nio kaye? Tell me ha……see yah! Gudluk sa lahat! Ingat

Ps.

May gusto akong sabihin na lam ko hindi na dapat…….ang birthday ko katulad pa rin ng dati….masaya pero kulang……theres emptiness within me…..…..and I don’t know why……….

zyrille's back!

2005-07-14T13:57:00.000-07:00

hi! IM BACK! what a bad news for all of us! mag 1:00 na and nagpapahinga lang ako sandali. medyo nangalahati na yung labahan ko but still marami pa akong labahan at marami pang gagawin like cleaning da haus n echetera....mamaya 3:00 pupunta na ako sa aking mababait na tutor.....

i woke up dis morning around 6:30 am. binuksan ang tv to see kung anong laman ng mga news ngayon and to my dismay yun pa rin! as usual si gloria at ang kanyang malateleseryeng buhay pangulo.tapos si singson may nilabas na tape na pinaguutos daw ni erap na ipapatay si gloria. well, kung ako ang tatanungin wala akong pinaniniwalaan sa kanila dahil matagal na nilang inalis ang tiwala ng inang bayan.
bahala na nga sila sa kanilang mga buhay. sabi nga sa bible, kung sino sa inyo ang hindi nakakagawa ng kasalanan, siya ang unang bumato sa babaing ito….d ba dapat ganun? Asus! Dapat dyan sa mga pulitiko eh bumalik ng grade 1 dahil talo pa sila ng mga bata!

Hehehe.tama na nga yang tungkol sa pulitika na mukha ng nilublub sa putikan dahil sa sobrang dungis…kawawang inang bayan! Anyways, medyo sumaya naman ako kc after many million years of waiting, nagtext na rin si yola at si kaye. Si yola as usual a simple but inspiring quote. Si kaye quote din pero may kasamang bad news na pinag init na naman ng ulo ko. Feeling ko nga nagkabaliktad lahat ng mga organs ko buti bumalik.

I admit naman na namimiss ko na silang 3. si yola, si kaye at yung isa pa. of course naiintindihan ko naman sila kung bakit minsan d sila nagrereply. They are so busy. Si yola at si kaye busy sa school at si ano…sa work although sometimes kahit busy nagrereply siya at pag nagrereply siya kumpleto na ang araw ko! Sometimes quotes minsan sinasabi niya kung anong ginagawa niya. Nung isang araw nga nagtext ako sa kanya d sia nagreply sabi ko aha! La na namang load! After 3 days, nagulat ako nagtext kahit d pa ako nagpapadala! Hehehe. Ang masasabi ko lang masaya ako sa takbo ng friendship namin d katulad ng dati na lagi kaming magkagalit kaya ngayon im doing everything para d masira ang friendship namin at kahit malayo ako, lagi kong sinasabi na andito lang ako….

Yola…itong batang ito! Ninerbyos ako nung isang araw! Naglagay ba naman ng farewell note sa kanyang blog! D pa nga ako umaalis eh. Tapos after 2 or 3 hrs natusok ako nung sting ng wasp kaya feeling ko tuloy mamamatay na ako! Grabeh! Maiyak iyak nga ako nun and i kept on asking Jesus na wag muna akong kunin…hehae!kung ako ang tatanungin gusto kong umalis na ayaw. Gusto syempre sino bang ayaw tumira dun and because of the present situation of our country, talagang maiisip mo na talagang manibang bansa. Ayaw dahil syempre, andito sila eh. Yung mga pinakamamahal ko mga tao….. well si yola d na siya masyadong mnagtetext but I know naman busy siya at mahirap ang kanyang pinagaaralan at alam kong kailangan niyang mag-aral ng mabuti upang makaiwas na sa galit ng kanyang mga magulang..gudluk yola! May you have more teeth to come este graces to come pala hehehehe.

Kaye…hahahaha. Nakakatawa.isang araw nasalubong ko si ate bong sa mercury drug. She asked me kung asan daw yung isa kong kasama. Sabi ko si kaye po ba? Oo…nakakatawang isipin na may mga tao pa ring nagtatanong kung asan si kaye, ang lagi kong kasama nung ako ay nasa sekondarya pa lamang. Minsan pag magkasama kami, lagi nilang sinasabi kayo na naman?hahaha. sabi nila ang galling naman namin kasi mapang hanggang ngayon, magkasama pa rin kami. Hindi nila alam nagsimula kami sa masalimuot na sitwasyon. Mga bata pa kasi kami before at laging pinagaawayan ang mga bagay na hindi naman dapat pagawayan. Unti-unti nagmamature kami at nauunawaan na namin ang buhay at pinagtatawanan na lang namin ang aming nakaraang dulot ng aming murang isipan…at ngayon masasabi kong maayos at tatagal ang aming pagkakaibigan. Sana lang ay malampasan niya any mga trials at ang nakaraang gumugolo pa rin sa kanya…

Ano pa ba?? Ay oo nga pala! Asar nga pala ako sa aking butihing kapatid. Muntik ba naman niyang sabihin kay mama kung sino ang bago kong crush? Sabi pa niya kamuka nga ni U KNOW HU. Matangkad, maitim,may itsura at mukang probinsyano….( bakit ba kasi lagi na lang siya no). o sige sasabihin ko na nga kung sno siya but warning!!!!sasakit ang tyan mo sa kakatawa…isa po siyang tricycle driver…..sige tawa pa!its ok! Pero katulad na aking nabanggit, kamukha nga po niya. But mas bata cguro nasa early or mid 20’s. it all started with a smile. Lagi kasi siyang nakasmile sa akin pag nakikita niya ako. Ang sungit ko naman kung d ako ngingiti dba? So ningingitian ko rin siya. Laging ganon pag nagkikita kami. Den one night, pag kagaling go galling ojt, siya lang yung nakapark dun so no choice sa kanya ako sasakay. And nakita ko ngumiti siya when he saw me. Pagkasakay ko since red light, he asked me kung bakit ako ginabi sabi ko duty ko 2-10. I dint know kung imagination ko pero may kilig ang voice niya angdpara siyang tuwangtuwa sa pagtatagpo naming yon. ( nasusuka ka na no? k lang yan) bast laging ganun pag nagkikita kami.syempre kinikilig rin ako. Tapos isang araw sumakay ako dun sa isang tricycle, lumapit siya sabi niya ingatan mo yan ha….nagulat po ako syempre. I don’t know kung anong ibig sabihin niya but syempre natuwa ako dun. Kaso one night, nung inutusan ako ni mama bumili ng something sa tindahan, nakita ko siya and may kausap siyang girl! ( poor zay!) after nun nagiba na yung pagtingin ko sa kanya, kung dati gusto ko siya Makita, nagun ayoko na muna. Im asking nga yola kung ngingitian ko pa ba siya or dedma na lang…kaso sa sobrang busy ng buhay niya, d pa niya sinasagot pero syempre im willing to wait even for a millllion years….yun muna ha….

Oi!!!! Lapit na ang aking kaarawan! At ako pa pala ay magbebente na hehehehe. Sabi nila dapat daw akong maghanda dahil 20 na nga ako dba? Sabi ko ayaw ko dahil gastos lang! but deep inside my iba pang dahilan like personal problems, family problems, financial problems, my friends are not happy although they are are trying to hide their sadness at ang ating bansa! Si kaye, hinahunting ng kanyang nakaraan at nawalan siya ng isang matalik na kaibigan dahil na rin sa kanyang kagagawan, si mm she lost her beloved mother, si yola ay naku! Si yola! Ang dami niyang problema, study, personal, friends, lovelife etc. grabe yola! At sina peng…d ko na ilalagay kung bakit since ayaw ng pagusapan ni yola…at kung ano man ang nangyayari sa kanila ngayon, nasasaktan ako,naapektuhan. feeling ko its my fault. sana lang malampasan nila ito at hindi sila tuluyang magkawatakwatak....nasa iloilo pala ang bata.... Kaya d na lang ako magcecelebrate. Ditto na lang ako sa bahay. Ccmba maglilinis kakain matutulog tuturuan si Janelle echetera…bahala na…..basta sana lang kahit sandali maging masaya ako at kung ano man ang pinagdadaanan naming lahat, sana malampasan nanamin lahat ng ito……….

Oh no! 2 na dami pa akong gagawin! Gotta go! See yah! Dami pa ako kwento saka na lang pagbalik ko! =>

FRIEND ALONE

2005-05-26T01:02:00.000-07:00

dedicated to yola....hehehehehehehe

I know what it's like to be alone,left behind without saying good-bye,or a tune to play what's on your mind,left behind trying to understand why,people spite to spread their lies to you,nothing better for them to do, that's why.Building so long to get to know you,taking the time to see it all through,I believed so well one day you would come,to the place where we could belong,only to find, sadly you have gone,to the place where we ended up so wrong.: Friend alone, you have gone far away,: listening to those who got it oh so wrong,: believing me doesn't seem to change you,: can't seem to see the days ahead without you,: knowing so much has laid but so little known,: hey there, can you feel what I'm going through,: can you see what I am leading to.Trying to remember the whole story,finding a time when distance was with you,finding a time when it started to fall apart,I believed so much one day you would come,to the place playing the game of good hearts,only to find, sadly you have gone.Hey there, can you feel what I'm going through,hey there, can you see what I am leading to,building so long to get to know you,taking the time to see it all through,but gone to the place where it ended up so wrong...........

2004-11-27T09:28:00.000-08:00

I’m already here at school and as expected walang teacher at 5 pa lang kaming magkakaklase while the other sections are already having their lessons na...
I woke up early this morning feeling excited and nervous because this is my first Saturday class for the 2nd sem...actually last sat pa nagsimula kaso hindi ako pumasok dahil umuulan at ayaw na rin akong papasukin ni mama....ok lang naman kasi according to my classmates, wala naman daw teacher kaya umuwi lang sila ng maaga.
On my way to school, naalala ko na madadaan ko nga pala kung saan SIYA nagwowork and when the fx passed by that place, I closed my eyes (because I knew I am committing a very big terrible sin) and there's a sudden pang. No, its not because I tried to avoid that place...a little...but because I suddenly remembered my life’s frustrations.
One of my life’s frustration is I don’t like the course I m taking up and I hate the school where I’m studying. I hate the course because it’s not the course I want to take up. This last few months I had finally realized that I really want to take up psychology and be child psychologist someday. Then why am I taking up this vocational course? Actually it’s not my decision. It has never been my decisions. It was my aunt’s. Why? Since my parents can’t afford to send me to college, my aunt offered but I need to study _____ at_____ and I am not going to continue psychology. She only gave me two choices. Take it or leave it and the only choice that I have was to take it. Because if I declined their offer, I am going to be the “ talk of the town”- the term my cousins and me are using if one of us committed a mistake because in our family if you did something they don’t like, you will be the star for a week or two. And that is the reason why I need to take it. If I don’t, then they will be talking about my negative traits over and over again and they will be asking me a lot of question with matching sermons….and that’s what happened when I refused to study at Fatima….If they only knew….
I hate the school. Actually, the people there are cheerful and friendly; the school was clean and was away from the very busy and noisy streets. The only thing that I hate about them was their system. It seems they are not fully prepared. They only posted an advertisement saying they are accepting enrollees for_______ but they are not prepared. Lack of teachers, lack of equipments etc. Even their announcements are not clear. They will make an announcement today and tomorrow they will change it. Tsk! Tsk! What kind of student would like to study there if the system was ______. I don’t want to write the word.
The other frustrations? Actually, its like I am confused. There are some things I wanted to do but I know it’s not the right thing to do. I am sorry Yola, ate Cathy, ate zel, kuya Glenn and Father Nonette. But miss Maru and I really really do. Last week while I was teaching my tutor, a visitor came and she is carrying a baby. It was the visitor of the grandmother of my tutor. Since I am sitting near the visitior, I can’t help but look at the baby and there is pain and I know why. I miss him. Then yesterday my tutor’s cousin, SJ, brought out all his remote control cars and even if I tried to avoid the pain, it came…and the last thing I want to do was to buy him a gift for Christmas. But I know its not good. I need to move on, let go and grow up so I can face other life’s challenges. But just like what I have written a while ago, I am confused. One part of me wants to do it while the other one said no and what made it worse is that I kept asking myself why I didn’t carry him and cuddle him in my arms the last time I saw him? It might be the last time. I really want to do it but why I didn’t? I really felt bad about it and almost everyday I am asking that question to myself. I want to go back there and carry him, hug him, talk to him and put him to sleep…. but its not good…it was his mom….NO, I don’t want to talk about what happened that day and what happened to the “ friendship”- if you call that a friendship. But there’s something I want to tell her--------You made a mistake and one day you’ll be thanking me for coming in to your life. But whatever happened in the past, I will always be a friend. I wish you luck and happiness. I’m always praying for you and your family. I just hope that if the day will come for us to meet again, there will be no more walls between us and no more hypocrisy. I hope we can still smile to each other without remembering what happened in the past…and maybe a little chat about our life’s accomplishments….
And maru, oh! I miss you so much!!! If only I could see you or visit you then this pain will fade away…but….I just want to tell you that even if I will never see you anymore or you don’t get to know me, I’m always here praying and caring for you. Be a good boy like your dad. I miss you and I really do care about you. One day if the right time comes, I will drop by your house and say hi…and your gifts? Don’t worry lil one, I’ll think about it… and whatever my decision might be…it’s for the best…
So there are the 2 of my life’s frustrations and I hope that as the new year will greet us, they will be no longer frustrations but my armors as I continue my life’s journey. I hope that I will become a stronger person full of hopes, faith and dreams as I welcome the new year. New life.
Christmas na!!!!! oh no! la pa akong xmas gifts for yada yada and yada! And yola’s birthday is on Thursday na…tsk! Tsk! Ano ba kasing magandang iregalo no? asa kanya na ata lahat eh…HAPPPY BIRTHDAY FRIEND! From your friend whose been struggling to win her life’s many challenges.

PS: TSK! TSK! What a waste of time! Ayaw kaming tanggapin nung teachers naming kasi marami na raw siyang estudyante. The same with the other teachers marami na raw sila masyado…. poor us!!! Kaya ang ginawa naming…umuwi na lang……tsk! Tsk!

clearing thoughts

2004-10-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

Kaya pala ako gumising ng maaga kasi maglilinis ako ng bahay dahil maaga uuwi si mama at lagot na naman kami pag inabutang nakabaliktad ang bahay. Ewan kung bakit ang gulo-gulo ng isip ko…medyo. A few days ago, I’ve been telling Yola and Kaye na nakapagmove-on na ako at last. Nakalimutan ko na ang galit ko sa dalawa (peng and nube). Nakalimutan ko na rin yung nangyari last year and im ready to see them. I want to see them lalo na ngayong excited akong makita ang firstborn nila. Ok lang sa akin kung pagtabuyan nila ako palabas ng bahay nila basta ang importante napuntahan ko sila….maybe for the last time. And I know naman na kung sakaling mangyri yun…God is always there and my closefriends, yola and kaye ( sniff!). kaso ano to? Ang hirap makuha ng address nila. Kung baga sa puno ng buko, malayo ang bunga. Mahirap hagilapin. Ang pinakalast leaf ko na lang ay si MM. kasi siya lang ang puwedeng kumuha ng address since sigurado ( 90%) kaming hindi ibibigay nila______ yun. Sigur ibibigay nila kaso kailangan kong balikan ang nangyari last year e ayako na nga maalala yun. Kahapon tinext namin si MM kung nakuha na niya…kaso hindi siya nagreply..baka la na namang load (always!) or baka busy…dami na kasi nilang ginagawa talaga….sabi ni matias puntahan ko daw sa mater…hindi pa pwede. Nakapagmove on na nga ako. Ready na ako Makita sila peng but pupunta ng mater hindi pa. Hindi lang naman sina _____ang ayokong Makita dun. Marami rin kasi akong bad memories sa school na un kaya ayoko muna…..hay! sana magreply na si MM at makuha na niya para next week. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!...sana…….

xmas is on the air!

2004-10-09T21:17:00.000-07:00

haha! kanina while were eating our lunch biglang pinatugtog itong kanta sa radyo.....ewan kung bakit lagi ko nang siyang kinakanta kahit i dont have SOMEONE since birth!.........cge enjoy na lang!

SA ARAW NG PASKO

II.
PASKO NA NAMAN
NGUNIT BAKIT WALA KA PA
HANGGANG KAILAN KAYA AKO MAGHIHINTAY SA IYO

II.
BAKIT BA NAMAN
KAILANGAN LUMISAN PA
ANG TANGING HANGAD KO LANG AY MAKAPILING KA

(CHORUS)
SANA NGAYONG PASKO
AY MAALALA MO PA RIN AKO
HINAHANAP HANAP PAG-IBIG (can we change this to friendship?......sagwa!) MO
AT KAHIT WALA KA NA NANGANGARAP AT UMAASA PA RIN AKO
MULING MAKITA KA AT MAKASAMA KA
SA ARAW NG PASKO

(REPEAT I & II)
(REPET CHORUS 2X)

SANA NGAYONG PASKO.......

TSK! LA PA AKO IPON! EI! I DUNNO IF IM DOING THE RIGHT THING BUT IM GONNA SAVE SANA PARA MAKABILI AKO NG GIFT KO FOR THE "BABY"....STORY BOOKS SANA........

poem about lost friends

2004-10-07T23:23:00.000-07:00

sori ha d ko muna ikwento yung dapat ito na lang muna....pag onti na lang gawa ko saka ako kwekwento k?....dis poems pala is about losing a friend........or rather saying goodbye............im planning to send this to THEM kaso...........pinagiisipan ko muna.....

Goodbye
by Rosebud
Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even care
I don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered.
do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-I love you, but goodbye.

Quiet Emotions
by Judy Burnette

I always wanted more from you
than you were willing to give;
So now we've gone our separate ways
each with different lives to live.
The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can't turn back.
I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.
Sometimes on those busy days
when you've a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.
In that quiet moment
when you're surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between
am still someone who cares.

And Where Were You?
by Valerie

I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You...a stranger to me now.
I'm left with emptiness...
I wish I knew how it could be,
That we were once so open and free.
You were like my sister.. yet so much more
I wish I not and it's too late...
My friend, my lover once, is now unknown.
And what hurts the most is I now know..
What I lost.. and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
And not a moment with you I've spent.
I hope one day I can forgive you,
my friend..I miss you....
Why did you go?
would have seen what I see now before.
For, I did

teasing yola......oooooooow! cute........

2004-10-07T00:00:00.000-07:00

for the second time d ko na naman nakausap si father nonette kasi nagpasama sa akin magsimba yung mommy ng aking napakabait na tutor....nyek! d ko alam name ng mom niya!....basta tita na lang.......ayun...plano ko talaga ako lang mag-isa para walang makaalam kung ano ang itatanong ko kay father ( except yola na siya ang nag bless sa plan ko). baka next time na lang or maybe this friday....first friday naman ah....kaso i promised virgin manaog na pupuntahan ko siya either this friday or tomorrow basta pupuntahan ko siya sa greenfields 3.....( magmongha na lang kaya ako......d pwede dun yung mga babaeng madaling magkacruush sa guys zay!) anyways, ang purpose ko lang naman e para humimgi ng konting spritual advice tungkol sa gagawin kong way para kahit papaano e makaalis na ako sa ................china? wahahahah!

gagawa na sana ako ng reviewer ng aking tutor....natempt lang mag internet at nakita ko ang message sa akin ni yola.....dont use my username....wahahaha! success!!!!!!! naasar ka na naman ang welll close friend ko who is always there for me..... buti na lang at d siya napipikon sa mga pinaggagawa ko.....kasi pag nagalit siya...mayamaya bati na niya ako! ganyan talaga ang mga kambal d matitiis ang isat- isa.....wihhihihi! touch!

kanina, kahit d ko nakausap si father, naging happy ako ulit...why? nakita ko ulit ang aking cuty cute crush na si _________....ay! he's so cute talaga! kahit na medyo kahawig niya si________ cute pa rin siya ( la na bang ibang word kundi cute)....basta.......how i wish he is mine......dream.believe.survive.yola! ( naku c yola na namn!)

hmmmmmmm........ about them? actually sila naman talaga ang reason kung bakit ko gustong makausap si father......kung bakit....tom na lang,,,promis! yoko kasi masira ang aking napakagandang mood tonight........so tom na lang!

updates........

2004-09-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

Haha! Nakakatawa naman tagal ko na pa lang d sumusulat dito kabago bago pa lang tamad na agad. Anyway, I’ll try to remember kung anong mga nangyari nung mga nakaraang araw…….

Aug.22 – 23- tsk! La na ako maalala! Ay! Dinalaw pala namin ng kapatid ko si jam sa FEU hospital dahil may dengue siya………..yung lola ko umuwi sa navotas kasi miss na yung mga apo niya dun……at pag d ko raw siya tinigilan sa pangungulit d na raw siya babalik……. …….

Aug.24- pre-finals namin! Ang galing talaga ng teacher naming magbigay ng test! Sobra! Naalala ko tuloy si Tampus! Bumili ako card at pumunta ng mater at cnabi kay kuya Ronald na ibigay kay………..d pala ako pumasok sa loob….yoko nga dami monsters dun!

Aug .25 – 27- bumagyo! Kawawa naman mga friends ko stranded sa baha……si solei d ko alam bka stranded. si kaye tumambay sa ministop kasama nag mommy niya at dun sila mag hapon…. Si MM stranded sa school at si yola?......si yola!!!!!! Wahahahaha! Ok lang yan at least na experience nyo rin kung pano mastranded sa baha at pano lumubog sa baha…..wihihihi. ang mapapayo ko lang ay dapat lagi kayong magdala ng……………..DIA………..diaket, kapote, payong, boots at payong tapos pag suspended ang klase tumulong na lang sa mga traffic enforcers……..at least nakatulung ka sa kapwa tao na tulad mo ay stranded na rin.d ba yola? Malay mo may nakasalubong kang cute and you will be thanking God for sending the storm and you will be praying na sana bumabagyo araw-araw kahit na basang-basa ka na ( sabay kanta ng tuwing umuulan ni regine velasquez……buhos na ulan lunurin mong tuluyan hatid mo may bagyo dalangin ito ng puso kong sumamasamo pag-ibig ko’y umaapaw, damdamin ko’y humihiyaw sa tuwa tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka………….wihi! kumakanta!) so what dba? Ok lang yan. Kaiingit nga e. nakita pala ni pia sina penguin at si nube sa Robinsons.

Aug.28- Sayang! May pasok na at syempre dahil iba na ang teacher, seryoso na talaga ang klase kaso mga 11 am, nagpaalam at magbibigay daw siya ng test sa ibang klase dahil kailangan……..ayun hindi siya bumalik 3 na! kaya yung iba kong classmates nag aya ng umuwi at ako….sa bagay la na battery hearing aid ko….umuwi na lang ako……( nyaiks! Bumalik yung teacher namin!) paguwi ko hinanap ko agad yung battery kaso la na pala….kaya postponed tuloy ang sleepover ko kela yola……sori yoles! At ang aking butihing kapatid sumama sa concert sa parish namin……ako bahay nuod tv kasama mama……..wahahaha! mga 12 dumating si papa galing laguna sinamahan kasi niya yung tita ko dun mag cater…….may dala nga pala si papa na buko pie from colette’s kaso tulog na ako kaya d ako nakakain……..si monmon 1 na umuwi…..

Aug.29- maaga kaming ginising ni mama dahil sisimba ng maaga sa DSP at walang misa sa chapel namin. Medyo late kami at marami ng tao sa loob ng simbahan kaya dun na lang kami sa labas buti na lang may upuan sa labas. Tapos ng misa dapat uuwi na kami kaso si kapatid gustong manuod ng lion dance (asus!) e kailangan ng umalis ni mama dahil magkikita sila ng pinsan ko sa st. lukes dahil may ibibigay siya……….si papa pupunta ng greenfields( bahay ng mga tita ko). Sa sobrang tagal ng diskasyunan nasalubong naming sina ninang elen, kenken, tita evelyn, jill, ate cathy, at joy at inaya kaming kumain sa salo- salo sa covered court. Sila mama sandali lang nagstay at kami ni mon2 naiwan. Ayun program, kainan, awarding. Nag speech si Father Nonette kaso d ko narinig la ako hearing aid e! yung food pinoy talaga! At si ate lala ang nagluto at sabi niya bawal daw ako kumain dahil la raw ako sa concert kagabi. Pag-uwi una kong hinarap ang buko pie. Sarap!

Aug.30- ang araw na napakarami kong iniisip (talaga lang ha lay!) na wala namang kwenta. una iniisip ko kung kelan talaga ang bday ni sister ludy…..gusto ko kasi siyang bigyan ng birthday card. Kasi mabait siya sa akin lalo na nung elementary pa ako. 2nd pano ko ipriprint yung report ko la ako pamasahe dahil d ako iniwanan ng pera ni mama! 3rd kung bibili pa ba ako ng baby stuff for penguin or wag na. 4th pano ako magrerport bukas e pinakahate ko ngang gawin yun! At pinaka last….bday na niya bukas at si letse flan next Monday! Since napakabait kong bata….sobra….as in Im a candidate for the search for the living saint! Mga 12 am pumunta ako cr ( dun lang ako hindi mapapansin!) at nag utter ng prayer for her, her family and her unborn child. At kinanatahan ko siya ng hapi birthday! Syempre sa isip lang e di naging candidate naman ako for mental hospital? b-day pala ni t.pearly ........d ko alam.......

Aug.31- wahahahahaha! May pasok ako at since d ko pa napaprint ang report ko 7 na d pa ako umaalis ng bahay hoping na sana may bukas ng computer shop…..bigla kong naalala si yola! Tumawag ako and mommy niya ang sumagot buti na lang ok lang na pumunta ako dun ng ganung oras (ewan ko kay yola kc tulog pa siya at mukhang napakaganda ng kanyang dream. Thanks pala ha! Hinulog ka talaga ng langit!). ayun pumunta ako sa kanila at nagpaprint…………..mayamaya umalis na ako kasi super late na talaga ako. Buti na lang at nakasakay ako agad ng bus na tumutulo ang aircon….tuluan ba raw ang report ko! Buti na lang at onti lang. Pag dating ko sa school ala! May exam! Nyaiks! D ko alam yun! Lagot! Buti na lang tinanggap nung teacher ko yung reason ko na nagpaprint ako dahil sabi niya report ko daw ngayon. Buti na lang at madali ang test kundi ewan ko lang! Maya- maya nagpakopya na naman at dahil sobrang haba ng pinakopya niya next week na raw ako magreport…….ang galing! I changed my mind na bumili ako ng card for sister ludy. La tinamad na. Umuwi na lang ako at nagpahinga ng unti at naglinis linis na ulit. Inabot pala ako ng napakalakas na ulan sa kalsada kaya yung uniform ko disaster! Toady nga pala ang kaarawan ni penguin. wish ko e sana lumipat na sila sa mt. apo kasama yung mga monsters sa mater tutal la naman silang kwenta.......pero yung baby iwan!

Sept.1- First Wednesday at since I want to ask Father Nonette for some advice, nagsimba ako. Late na nga ako dumating. Sa may gilid sa likod ako umupo at during his homily napansin ko yung mom ni yola at si yola! (c yola na naman!) Patay! D ko na talaga makakausap si Father since ang bastos ko naman kung hindi ko sila papansinin. At last nakita rin ako ng mom ni yola at tinuro ako kay yola. After the communion tumabi na ako sa kanila at pinagdasal ko na lang kung anong tama o mali. After naming magpabless kay Father inaya nila akong kumain sa haus nila. Pumayag naman ako. Mayamaya dumating na ang tita niya with her cousins and kaizen! (He is one of the cutest baby I’ve ever seen!) Bday kasi ng tito nila kaya celebrate sila. Since gabi na dun na raw ako matulog sabi ng mom ni yoles at buti na lang pinayagan ako…………Pag alis nila kaizen, nanuod kami ni yola ng a walk to remember ( sila fidel at rubi pinatulog na ng mom nila dahil skul bukas). Ganda sana ng movie kaso ordinary story lang at nahulaan ko agad kung anong sakit ni Mandy Moore……after the movie humiga na kami ni yola at chineck na muna niya yung ym niya sa cell………then tulog na kami..

Sept.2- 6 am nagising ako at wala na si yola! Yun pala naliligo na siya kaya kumain na muna kami ni tita yolly ng almusal syempre kwentuhan! After niyang magbihis, kain muna siya tapos may binigay ulit si tita yolly at umalis na kami. Punta siya la salle to get her grades. Bago ako umuwi sinamahan ko muna siya magabang ng fx at since tanghali na puno na lahat ng fx so nag bus na lang siya (after waiting for more than 15 min ata) Pagdating ko sa bahay, hindi pala pumasok si papa dahil may lagnat siya. D na rin nagreview si mama at babantayan niya raw si papa…..nice! BONDING KAMING APAT! Ayun naglinis ng haus at naglaro ng pc yun lang ang ginawa ko that day. Pumunta pala si tita leony sa bahay para batiin si monmon ng hapi bday at para pumasyal.

Sept.3 – My brother’s birthday!!!!!!!! Too bad nasa simbahan na yung kapatid ko nung nagising ako bibigyan ko sana siya ng kiss!!!!!!! Naglinis ako ng bahay. Dadating kasi yung mga tita ko with our pamangkins and cousins! Pumunta pala si Macy, ate chi’s very cute daughter. Marunong na siyang mag-opo! Kaso nagalit pala sa akin si pia kasi sinumbong ko siya sa tita ko na nakita siya ni kaye sa morayta na naninigarilyo…………..mga 9:30 umuwi na sila at rest na kami!!!!!

Sept.4- May pasok! Discussion ulit at next sat exam! Nice!!!!!!!!!! Uwian, inaya ako ng classmate ko na pumunta sa bahay ng classmate namin sa may litex d ako sumama kasi baka gabihin ako at saka yoko nga! La lang! ….umuwi. pahinga.saing.hain.hugas.tulog……..galit pa pala si pia. D pala umuwi si monmon dun siya sa classmate niya natulog.

Sept.5- nagsimba kami sa chapel. Paguwi namin la pa si monmon kaya inumpisahan ko nang maglaba at 5 na ako natapos sa sobrang dami ng labahan! Sira pa yung washing machine buti na lang yung dryer hindi. Galit pa rin sa akin si pia.

Sept.6- his birthday!!!!!!!!!letse!nakakatawa! ibang-iba talaga itong araw na ito kesa sa mga nagdaang sept.6. Why? Kc its just an ordinary day. La akong naramdaman. As in wala talaga! But I know he will always be__________ to me. Since he is still special (after many hours and days and months and a year of denying that somehow, after all the things that happened last year, deep inside,I still do care for them……..) Nagdasal ako for them at sana kung magkita man kami ulit , la nang hard feelings. At alam ko darating din yung araw na maiintindihan ko sila at maiintindihan nila ako. Kung bakit hindi pa rin nag-kukrus ang landas naming ni penguin, may dahilan yun at may time para dun………. At kung pupuntahan ko ba siya pag dumating na yung gift sa kanila, bahala na. “You can erase someone special on your mind but getting them out of your heart is another story.” siguradong magagalit na naman si yola si soi at si pia since i promised na kakalimutan ko na sila.

Sept.7- May pasok na ako! Ayun! Buti na lang pinagreport na ako. Ok naman kaso yung teacher naming ang daming tanong! Pagkatapos kong magreport nagpakopya na naman!HAHAHA! ayun! As usual. Umuwi ako agad. Pag-uwi ko pahinga at linis ng bahay. Galit pa si pia.

Sept.8- Its Mama Mary’s birthday! I called yola kung gusto niyang sumama mag simba. Buti pumayag siya at usapan daanan ko siya sa haus niya at 5:45. Kaso 5:00 dumating na si mama at papa kaya d ko na dadaanan si yola sa haus niya kita na lang kami sa simbahan. D na sumama si papa at pagod na raw siya si monmon na lang. Ayun at nagkita nga kami ni yola dun. Siya lang mag-isa dahil d siya sinamahan ni rubi. After the mass, kwentuhan papuntang sakayan ng tricycle. Bumuli muna si mama ng rambutan at binigay kay yola yung half for them. After that, tumawid na kami ng kalsada at nag goodbye na. Buti na lang pag-uwi namin may ulam at kanin na and to my relief….hindi crab!!!!!!!! Bawal kasi ako dun e……..after eating, hugas plates and then tulog! Ewan ko ba parang pagod na pagod ako……….galit pa rin si pia……..MM IS SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sept.9- boring day! Ako lang ako mag-isa kaya internet sana ako kaya gawa na lang ako journal at next time naman yung testi……dumating na si lola!........namiss niya raw ako kasi la nangugulit sa kanya…AW!!!!!!!!! Galit pa rin si pia……… nanganak na pala si t. noreen........

2004-08-22T22:00:00.000-07:00

August 21, 2004
10:00 pm
Ah! My first time to write here…….I woke up at around 5:30 to prepare my things for school. Since I’m still sleepy, I decided to continue my dream and promised to wake up after 15 minutes……. But to my horror, I woke up at 7:00 and I have to be at school before 8 (I have to get up at 6 because it will take an hour before I finished preparing for school)! So between my mother’s early sermon I tried to move faster and decided to skip breakfast ( my Lola gave another lesson about people who skips breakfast, so I took a few bites first.) and to my surprise I finished doing everything for only 30 minutes. Luckily, I got easily found a fx taxi and thank him its Saturday so am expecting that there is no traffic (I traveled for 15 minutes) I arrived at the waiting shed and I’m already inside the tricycle when I heard my ever “scandalosa” classmate shouting my name and she suddenly pulled me out of the tricycle and, still shouting, she said that there are no classes for the day (goodness! All the people in the shed are staring at us!). One of my classmates suggested to go to sm or ever (at 8:00?) and asked me to come with them but as usual I declined and told them I want to go home immediately and I’ m already hungry and I need to use the cr too. When I got home, my ever loyal dog welcomed me. well not actually me but her boyfriend who is waiting outside our gate. I went inside the house and my mother asked me what happened and of course I told her why I came back so early. Then I asked my Lola to cook something for me because am really hungry so she cooked banana fritters for me and my brother who asked me why I’m so early and why I didn’t go to kaye’s house instead. After eating, I opened the pc to play the “walang kamatayang” sims (the only game in our computer). I am still playing when Yola called and asked me to accompany her at ever gotesco to watch the film Sylvia because their prof told them that he will ask some questions about the film. I arrived at their house after 30 minutes and we went to gotesco after a few minutes. Yola first bought some food first before we went upstairs. But in a sudden twist of fate, Sylvia is no longer showing. They only gave it a one day showing then they closed it. She checked on her cell phone if there are other malls where we can watch Sylvia. She did and it was on festival mall in alabang. Since we both don’t have any idea how to get there, we checked first if we can find a pirated cd at Fairview centermall and luckily we did but it was a DVD and yola don’t have a DVD at home. But still she bought the DVD and said she will watch it on her classmate’s house on Monday. We went to her house and we spent time together since we seldom meet because of our busy life………we watched uaap on TV and hehehehe feu won against ue. (Yola is from La Salle but she’s cheering for ue because I forgot!). We also look at our high school pictures and we talked about our past high school life……… few hours later, her mom arrived and asked me to sleep there since tomorrow is Sunday but my mom didn’t allow me because I don’t have my personal things next time na lang daw……..so I ate dinner at yola’s and after a few minutes she and her bro accompanied me to the tricycle station. (yola’s mom gave me something first before I left…….so I thanked her and yola and promised to go back on Saturday……) I got home and greeted everybody at home (my mama didn’t scold me!) and watched 7th heaven first before I opened the pc to played sims again first before surfing the net…………..ahum! im so sleepy