clearing thoughts

Kaya pala ako gumising ng maaga kasi maglilinis ako ng bahay dahil maaga uuwi si mama at lagot na naman kami pag inabutang nakabaliktad ang bahay. Ewan kung bakit ang gulo-gulo ng isip ko…medyo. A few days ago, I’ve been telling Yola and Kaye na nakapagmove-on na ako at last. Nakalimutan ko na ang galit ko sa dalawa (peng and nube). Nakalimutan ko na rin yung nangyari last year and im ready to see them. I want to see them lalo na ngayong excited akong makita ang firstborn nila. Ok lang sa akin kung pagtabuyan nila ako palabas ng bahay nila basta ang importante napuntahan ko sila….maybe for the last time. And I know naman na kung sakaling mangyri yun…God is always there and my closefriends, yola and kaye ( sniff!). kaso ano to? Ang hirap makuha ng address nila. Kung baga sa puno ng buko, malayo ang bunga. Mahirap hagilapin. Ang pinakalast leaf ko na lang ay si MM. kasi siya lang ang puwedeng kumuha ng address since sigurado ( 90%) kaming hindi ibibigay nila______ yun. Sigur ibibigay nila kaso kailangan kong balikan ang nangyari last year e ayako na nga maalala yun. Kahapon tinext namin si MM kung nakuha na niya…kaso hindi siya nagreply..baka la na namang load (always!) or baka busy…dami na kasi nilang ginagawa talaga….sabi ni matias puntahan ko daw sa mater…hindi pa pwede. Nakapagmove on na nga ako. Ready na ako Makita sila peng but pupunta ng mater hindi pa. Hindi lang naman sina _____ang ayokong Makita dun. Marami rin kasi akong bad memories sa school na un kaya ayoko muna…..hay! sana magreply na si MM at makuha na niya para next week. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!...sana…….

xmas is on the air!

haha! kanina while were eating our lunch biglang pinatugtog itong kanta sa radyo.....ewan kung bakit lagi ko nang siyang kinakanta kahit i dont have SOMEONE since birth!.........cge enjoy na lang!

SA ARAW NG PASKO

II.
PASKO NA NAMAN
NGUNIT BAKIT WALA KA PA
HANGGANG KAILAN KAYA AKO MAGHIHINTAY SA IYO

II.
BAKIT BA NAMAN
KAILANGAN LUMISAN PA
ANG TANGING HANGAD KO LANG AY MAKAPILING KA

(CHORUS)
SANA NGAYONG PASKO
AY MAALALA MO PA RIN AKO
HINAHANAP HANAP PAG-IBIG (can we change this to friendship?......sagwa!) MO
AT KAHIT WALA KA NA NANGANGARAP AT UMAASA PA RIN AKO
MULING MAKITA KA AT MAKASAMA KA
SA ARAW NG PASKO

(REPEAT I & II)
(REPET CHORUS 2X)

SANA NGAYONG PASKO.......


TSK! LA PA AKO IPON! EI! I DUNNO IF IM DOING THE RIGHT THING BUT IM GONNA SAVE SANA PARA MAKABILI AKO NG GIFT KO FOR THE "BABY"....STORY BOOKS SANA........

poem about lost friends

sori ha d ko muna ikwento yung dapat ito na lang muna....pag onti na lang gawa ko saka ako kwekwento k?....dis poems pala is about losing a friend........or rather saying goodbye............im planning to send this to THEM kaso...........pinagiisipan ko muna.....


Goodbye
by Rosebud
Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even care
I don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered.
do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-I love you, but goodbye.

Quiet Emotions
by Judy Burnette

I always wanted more from you
than you were willing to give;
So now we've gone our separate ways
each with different lives to live.
The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can't turn back.
I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.
Sometimes on those busy days
when you've a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.
In that quiet moment
when you're surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between
am still someone who cares.

And Where Were You?
by Valerie

I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You...a stranger to me now.
I'm left with emptiness...
I wish I knew how it could be,
That we were once so open and free.
You were like my sister.. yet so much more
I wish I not and it's too late...
My friend, my lover once, is now unknown.
And what hurts the most is I now know..
What I lost.. and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
And not a moment with you I've spent.
I hope one day I can forgive you,
my friend..I miss you....
Why did you go?
would have seen what I see now before.
For, I did

teasing yola......oooooooow! cute........

for the second time d ko na naman nakausap si father nonette kasi nagpasama sa akin magsimba yung mommy ng aking napakabait na tutor....nyek! d ko alam name ng mom niya!....basta tita na lang.......ayun...plano ko talaga ako lang mag-isa para walang makaalam kung ano ang itatanong ko kay father ( except yola na siya ang nag bless sa plan ko). baka next time na lang or maybe this friday....first friday naman ah....kaso i promised virgin manaog na pupuntahan ko siya either this friday or tomorrow basta pupuntahan ko siya sa greenfields 3.....( magmongha na lang kaya ako......d pwede dun yung mga babaeng madaling magkacruush sa guys zay!) anyways, ang purpose ko lang naman e para humimgi ng konting spritual advice tungkol sa gagawin kong way para kahit papaano e makaalis na ako sa ................china? wahahahah!

gagawa na sana ako ng reviewer ng aking tutor....natempt lang mag internet at nakita ko ang message sa akin ni yola.....dont use my username....wahahaha! success!!!!!!! naasar ka na naman ang welll close friend ko who is always there for me..... buti na lang at d siya napipikon sa mga pinaggagawa ko.....kasi pag nagalit siya...mayamaya bati na niya ako! ganyan talaga ang mga kambal d matitiis ang isat- isa.....wihhihihi! touch!

kanina, kahit d ko nakausap si father, naging happy ako ulit...why? nakita ko ulit ang aking cuty cute crush na si _________....ay! he's so cute talaga! kahit na medyo kahawig niya si________ cute pa rin siya ( la na bang ibang word kundi cute)....basta.......how i wish he is mine......dream.believe.survive.yola! ( naku c yola na namn!)

hmmmmmmm........ about them? actually sila naman talaga ang reason kung bakit ko gustong makausap si father......kung bakit....tom na lang,,,promis! yoko kasi masira ang aking napakagandang mood tonight........so tom na lang!